Trust

I can be trusted, it's one of my better gifts,
And I've been described as trustworthy
By people who are important to me.
I could be trusted but
I couldn't trust myself;
Even when my conscience and spirit
And everything else would physically
Shake me up from inside on out.
Now I'm paying for that abuse
For the remainder of my life
With what's left of my life.
She trusted me and I took that
Trust and misused it and hurt her.
I took her trust for granted.
Can I ever be trusted again?
Can I ever trust myself again?
Only God knows.