Ready to Live

What was I thinking,
What was I so scared of?

What had possessed my
Heart, mind, body, and soul?

What could possibly consume
So precious a gift as my life?

Was it the thought of growing old
Or fear of illness or injury?

How selfish and vain I was.
How narrow minded I had become.

What problem or issue had
Pushed me to this end?

So much to live for,
So much life to live!

I'm ready to live,
To become truly alive!

I don't want to die,
It's not my time.

I'm not ready to die,
Not as I thought I was.

Growing old isn't a curse,
It's a privilage.

Troubles and problems aren't,
They'll ultimately become my victories.

Trials and tribulations,
These too shall pass.

No, I'm alive, so very much alive.
I'm right here, right now!

My desire to live is strong,
Stronger than my willingness to die!

I'm alive and I will not die today.
It's not my time - not yet, anyway.