My Lament

Where is my happiness?

Not happy at home or work or play.

Am I to be perpetually unhappy?

I feel so alone and crave company

Even when I'm with you.

When I'm with you, I want to get away

Or you'll push me away or isolate me.

You'll focus on anything else but me.

When I'm away and alone I miss my children

And even you on your better days.

Then I feel guilty and empty.

What am I to do?

We're living two seperate lives

Beneath one roof and call it a marriage.

I'm tired of being guilty, hurt, alone,

Fighting, isolated!

I'm tired of feeling tired!

A melancholiness and lonliness

Burn inside of me where romance

And inspiration once blazed!